Suffer time....

Finally, I've the mood to study....... But, I do hope I get to cover up all form of subject............
PMR coming, trial having...... Swt, every month having exam, no free time....... Anyway, this is just the starting, still have long way to go........
I shall change my everything after my PMR over, which is 13 of October...
Then, I shall a brand new of Philip Moh Keng Lum........ Haha, joking.... But, I really have to correct my attitude towards anyone.......... So, all the best....... Gambateh!!!

Am I that attractive?

Today, after basketball match, me calvin went to Nam Heong for lunch, when the time pass by Confucian School, a girl suddenly shouted "lengzai" to me, then when the time I look up, she keep look at me, but I don't care about her, just continue my journey to Nam Heong....... But, I don't think I'm that "lengzai", may be she shout for fun.......

Today, saw you, but I don't really have the mood to talk to you, but, I know you have not been deleted in my heart....... But, I know, time can change everything....... So, let the god to decide........

Forget about it........

I've made myself clear enough.....
I don't need you anymore......
I hope you were not in my heart anymore........
I swear, I will not think about you, talk about you, or anything about you anymore......
I want to forget you in my heart even as a friend...... Focus on study........
I want to live without you right now.......
I want to change my life....... Be a more emo person.........
I don't need you to talk to me when u see me, even ask for help........ Just leave me alone!!!
I hate everything........
Please don't ask me why........ Sorry........ I really hope I've already deleted you in my memory....... Even as a friend........

Trial Over......

Finally, trial PMR over, and I have time to update my blog........ but it not my honey moon yet, yet 2 more exam coming soon.....
Have to prepare now....... Focus on study........

What a day.......

So many things many between this 3 days.......
First, I'm sick during my birthday, so don't wish me happy birthday, cz smth happen on that day, so I'm not happy at all........
Second, I think my school principal got problem, confirm my schoolmate infected H1N1 and still don't inform the health of minister to close our school, I think he wants all of us to get infected only he will close........ Plus, exam season now, have to work hard for it......
Forget about sad things, I'm so glad that I' going to promote to be seniour librarian next monday, haha quite happy with it, but the most worried is my exam.......

What a bad day......

Finally, I'm sick, after a long long time never sick before........
Today went school for half day, about 11am, I went for a doctor, and the doctor is not really serious, of cz not H1N1..........
May be not going school tomorrow, but I'm going spent time at home, so damn sienz......

Haiz....... I really don't want to skip any class, bcz PMR is just around the corner, and I'm force to be at home....... Somemore, if I'm at home, I won't spend time studying unless got mood, I will just spent time on computer, dotaing.......

A day without you.....

I have finally made my decision, and I hope I'll say what I do........
Although I know I can't lose you, but, I know that now is not the time.........
So, I hope I wun regret to make this move, but now, my heart still can't forget about you.......

Anyway, don't talk about this, today, didn't go school, because not feeling well, hope will recover soon. Stay at home nothing to do, damn sienz....... Really wonder if the whole week i didn't go school, I better choose to die........

2 more days, birthday coming!!! But, I'm not really hurry for that day, bcz birthday is no longer important in my life.....

Speechless.......

Life is SUCKS.......

Life is meaningless........

Life cause trouble........

Life makes me do something very stupid.........

Life make me can't make decision......

Life is really damn SUCKS!!!

Life is nothing to me......

I really wan commit sucide now.........

After today, I promise that I won't be like how am I suppose to be last time..........

I know that I really did something stupid, and makes trouble to people, waste everyone time, even wasting your saliva to talk to me........ I'm so useless and silly to everyone

May be, I should blame someone, to born me out to this world, bcz now I realise that I do not belongs to this world...... I should not even be born out, Why am I here........

Sometimes, I really thinks that why I can tell someone to do this do that, but, I can't even make it myself..... And, I still talking crap to you, but, I know that, you were not willing listen it.... You were just force to do that......

I believe that if I am dead now, someone will be even happier....... But, I really don't mind when do I die now, bcz live and dead doesn't mean anything to me now, even I die in another second, I won't be afraid of that........

From now onwards, I swear, I wun be like happy go lucky that kind of person, I think I should e emo anytime, anywhere.........

I really mean nothing to this world...... Pray hard I die in another second..........